Heartstrings: 2015

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Your Name

Sometimes a whisper of your name

will fall from off my lips...

A sadness then comes over me

and oh, how hard it grips...

Another Day

I want to tell you

but I can't...

I want to hold you

but I won't....

Another day goes by....Another day.....

Music by Bernward Koch

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Happy New Year

Another year is almost gone

the new one's at the door

I hope that what awaits you there

is all you're hoping for...

Here's to you my faithful friend

to dreams that never die

For rainbows after every storm

and clear blue sunny skies...

Hoist your sails into the wind

and sail to paradise

Explore the beauty of this world

and never compromise...

I lift my glass and drink to you

and wish you all the best

I'll think about you all year long

and pray your days are blessed...

Monday, December 28, 2015

I Wish

I wish that I could speak my mind

and bare my soul to you

To share these feelings in my heart

and hear the same things too...

I wish that I could kiss your lips

to hold you in my arms

To whisper sweet things all night long

and bask within your charms...

I wish that I could marry you

to give you children too

To walk beside you all my life

I'm so in love with you...

Foolish Soul

A lifetime isn't long enough

to help us understand

The depths of our humanity

our purpose and the plan...

Sometimes we stand on mountain tops

sometimes we hide in caves

We boast about mortality

while walking upon graves...

Oh foolish soul that never learns

your fate is at the door

Your candle flickers while you beg

for just for a moment more...

Friday, December 18, 2015

If Only

You'll never know just how I feel

what's hidden deep inside

The many times I've thought of you

and nights I lay and cried...

You'll never know what could have been

the life we could have shared

How much I would have given you

if only you had cared...

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Someone To Hold Me

Been thinking that I'll take a ride

and leave it all behind

To start another life somewhere

and find some peace of mind...

Perhaps a hundred miles or so

will make it all alright

Or maybe I'll just press ahead

and drive all through the night

I'm praying I will find a place

where hopes and dreams come true

Someone to hold me all night long

and say they love me too...

From Here To There

So many questions fill my mind

and answers not in sight

How do I get from here to there?

I have to get this right...

My heart is running after you

I can't let others see

Weighing possibilities

what life with you might be...

Some days I want to speak my mind

and bare to you my soul

But then I catch myself in time

before I lose control...

I just can't take a chance on love
or that you might say no
I'd rather keep my heart in check
than have to see you go...

Monday, December 14, 2015

Day by Day

Day by day I get along

not much to what I do

Finding joy in little things

sometimes a drink or two...

Trying hard to not look back

and open up that door

Better that it stays that way

than letting raindrops pour...

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Missing You Tonight

I think of what we could have been

if we had tried some more

We made it far too easy Love

to walk out through that door...

I know we both made big mistakes

and couldn't make them right

This loneliness is killing me

I'm missing you tonight...

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Waiting

It's hard to put it all in words

just how I feel inside

Safe behind the hidden veil

my hopes and dreams abide...

I'm holding on with all my strength

believing it's all true

Waiting ever patiently

for me to be with you...

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Sometimes

Sometimes I drift away in thought

as memories drop on by

Sorted moments trapped in time

some how they still survive...

Sometimes they make me laugh out loud

the days of rock and roll

Then other times I weep inside

a longing in my soul...

Sometimes I smile and look above

and shed a little tear

For all the ones who touched my life

and those no longer here...

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Hidden

It's hidden deep within my heart

where no one else can see

An ever growing loneliness

that always walks with me...

A sadness that consumes my soul

I try my best to hide

The candle that burned bright in life

extinguished when you died...

In Love

In the stillness of the night

my mind begins to race

Thoughts of you begin to form

and soon a quickened pace...

Sorting possibilities

and where we go from here

Daring not to look to far

restrained by budding fear...

Fallen so in love with you

I know it's all so true

My heart began to smile inside

the moment I saw you...

I Tried

I tried my best to reach for you

had hoped for so much more

I would have made you happy Love

instead you closed the door...

I know there was a moment there

I felt it in my soul

Your heart was racing fast for me

your head then took control...

So long my Dear, I wish you well

I hope your dreams come true

I would have given anything

to share my life with you...

Friday, December 4, 2015

My Rainbow

When all the storms have passed me by

and as I look to you

You're still the rainbow in my sky

the one that loves me too...

Still in Love

A thousand times I've thought of you

when memories walked on by

The many times you made me laugh

and days you made me cry...

How is that you still appear

and touch me like you do?

I can't outrun this loneliness

I'm still in love with you...

Sunday, September 27, 2015

I'm Here

Slumber comes for me once more

and takes me by the hand

A journey to a secret place

a far off peaceful land...

Walking down a corridor

with windows on each side

Looking at the memories

and where they now reside...

Up ahead an opening

a doorway filled with light

Sounds of water fill my ears

an ocean soon in sight...

A sea of turquoise in my view

white sand beneath my feet

Clouds above are billowing

a seagull there to greet...

Gentle breezes brush my face

a blast of ocean spray

A voice I haven't heard for years

"I'm here for you today"...

Saturday, September 26, 2015

Misha

A thousand times I've thought of you

and where we both are now

It's funny how the little things

come back to me some how..

At times I think of how you laughed

your silly little grin

The way you kissed me on my lips

when daylight would begin...

The way we cuddled on the couch

and drifted off to sleep

The mornings we were late for work

the secrets we would keep...

Sometimes I hear you sing your songs

and then I sing them too

For days I hum the melodies

just like you used to do...

I never thought I'd feel this way

or miss you like I do

I'm coping now the best I can

I'm still in love with you...

Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Every time I look at you
I fall in love again
Your gentle touch and how you laugh
my lover and my friend...

I often see you in my dreams
your sweet and lovely face
Dancing in an evening gown
with white embroidered lace...

Spellbound by your every move
I watch you gently sway
So absolutely beautiful
I just can't look away...

The spotlight hovers over you
a dazzling silhouette
Your eyes like diamonds shining bright
my angel called Nanette...

The Voice

I heard you in my dreams last night

my hopes were quickly dashed

The voice that caused my heart to leap

an echo from the past...

At times I feel you close to me

can almost see your face

I reach to hold you in my arms

to fall in your embrace...

Sunday, September 20, 2015

If

Times and seasons come and go

and life keeps moving on

The journey to our hopes and dreams

and love we chance upon...

Sometimes the paths we take are wrong

we follow with our heart

What seemed to be the perfect choice

was foolish from the start...

When looking through the lens of time

we see it all so clear

If only we had waited for

the answer to appear...

Alone

Sometimes I feel so all alone

with people all around

The cares and worries of this world

pull hard and weigh me down...

Sometimes I want to scream out loud

release what's deep inside

To go somewhere I've never been

and find a place to hide...

Sometimes I question all I know

and wonder if I'm wrong

There's got to be more to this life

a place where I belong...

Friday, September 11, 2015

Our Time

Our time goes by so very fast

a flash before the eyes

A young and tender flower blooms

it wilts and then it dies...

We travel down a winding path
with stops along the way
A butterfly appears to all
and then it goes away

A moment in eternity
we call our very own
A bird that leaves its mother's nest
and flys away alone...

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Reunion

Was great to see you once again

it'd been so many years

The moment that I saw your face

brought laughter mixed with tears...

I've thought about you many times

and missed you very much

Some how life took us far away

we then fell out of touch...

Being here with you tonight

you're still so very sweet

The longing now is satisfied

the circle is complete...

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Reality

Awakened to reality

I now can understand

The truth that once eluded me

a clever slight of hand...

I've learned a lot about myself

we all have hopes and dreams

The spot light on the mountain top

is not quite what it seems...

Secrets

Lurking just behind the veil

the secrets that we keep

Guarding them incessantly

they often make us weep...

An Echo

I thought I heard your voice today

I turned but you weren't there

A echo from another time

that caused my heart to flare...

I've never gotten over you

how could I even try?

Your name is whispered in the wind

my tears fall from the sky...

Winds of Change

The winds of change are blowing now

I feel it in the air

A voice is speaking to my soul

it's time, you must prepare...

An ever growing restlessness

increases by the day

A thousand thoughts within my mind

of what may come my way...

I know that nothing ever stays the same

we all must move along

Another path I soon must take

to reach where I belong...

Music Child of God by Gene Tipton

Monday, August 31, 2015

Windows Of My Heart

I try to keep my heart in check

when ever you're around

I wanna tell you how I feel

so many fears abound...

I know that you can see inside

the windows of my heart

Every time you look at me

the curtains pull apart...

Crippled up Inside

Sitting near your resting place

a garden filled with tears

You've been asleep so very long

alone for many years...

A lifetime filled with loneliness

so crippled up inside

The flame that burned within my heart

extinguished when you died...

My Princess

Waves of lovely golden hair

her blue eyes pierce my soul

Her smile ignites a raging fire

that quickly takes control...

A touch of sweet Moroccan oil

upon her skin so fair

A pleasant scent that captivates

and gently fills the air...

The princess I've been waiting for

I'm powerless to fight

Everything within me yearns

to be with her tonight...

A Moment To Reflect

A quiet day in introspect

so much is on my mind

Sorting through the daily mail

and trying to unwind...

A glass of wine to smooth the edge

a walk out on the deck

Relaxing in my favorite chair

a moment to reflect...

Endless Maze

Treading water day and night

and feeling so alone

Walking in an endless maze

within my comfort zone...

Holding onto memories

and living in the past

It's time to open up my heart

and free myself at last...

Love of My Life

I think about what might have been

and where we both are now

The memories of those glory days

live on with me somehow...

You always were my miracle

could always make things right

The rose that blossomed in the Spring

the star that shone so bright...

You'll always be a part of me

no one can take your place

Your name is carved upon my heart

and cannot be erased...

Decisions

Your name is whispered in the wind

my tears fall in the rain

The memories of what used to be

still fill my heart with pain...

It's all so hard to understand

what tore us both apart

Our dreams were right in front of us

and love was in our heart...

We never should have walked away

I should have made you stay

Decisions that were made in haste

we can't undo today...

Moving On

I'm letting go and moving on

it's time to make a change

Been stagnant in my universe

so much to rearrange...

I never should have stayed so long

my focus is a mess

The hasty choices that I made

were poor I must confess...

I'm hoping there's still time for me

to find my paradise

To wipe away the bitter tears

that often fill my eyes...

Thursday, August 27, 2015

Secret Hideaway

It's nestled in a pleasant cove

my secret hideaway

A place where I can be alone

and contemplate the days...

A haven from a reckless world

brings solace to my mind

My getaway from city life

where friends are hard to find...

The water in the clear blue lake

reflects the giant trees

The mountain just behind the house

it blocks the winter breeze...

As years go by I realize

how precious life can be

A simpler way with peace of mind

the perfect choice for me...

Eleanor

The ocean waves are calm tonight

they gently brush the shore

The breeze now constant in my face

I here sweet Eleanor...

My troubled mind it finds a friend

in rhythmic ocean sounds

The moon is watching over me

as darkness now surrounds...

The walk along the beach at night

brings healing to my soul

It helps me set priorities

some things I can't control...

Each night I come to share with you

the details of my life

I wish that I could hold you love

I miss you my sweet wife...

Baby Please Come Home

Drifting out upon the sea

no rudder or a sail

A broken compass in my heart

as all my efforts fail...

So far from where we first embraced

I never wanted this

It seems like only yesterday

so many nights of bliss...

I'm lost without you in my life

can't bare to be alone

Let's try to make this all work out

oh baby please come home...

A Fantasy

I'm captured in a fantasy

a prison so it seems

A never ending search for you

each night within my dreams...

I can't escape the way I feel

no matter how I try

This longing deep within my soul

sometimes I sit and cry...

Please come and take me in your arms

and hold me all night long

Whisper words I long to hear

and stay where you belong...

How Beautiful

How beautiful she looks tonight

as slumber holds her close

Her spirit off in dreams somewhere

oh what a lovely pose...

Another Day

Consuming heartache never ends

as years go passing by

A wounded spirit cannot thrive

no matter how they try...

When tethered soulmates rip apart

they're like the walking dead

A mask is worn for all to see

pretense displayed instead...

Sometimes the hurting is so bad

the angels start to cry

The overwhelming emptiness

another day I die...

I Love You Still So Much

The memories still come back to me

though faded by the years

Sometimes I see you in my dreams

and then for days the tears...

My mind accepts reality

but deep within my soul

A longing to transcend this world

and hold what darkness stole,,,

At times I know you reach for me

can feel your gentle touch

My darling I am missing you

I love you still so much...

You and Me Babe

We're sailing on a moonlit night

upon a sea of glass

A gentle breeze caressing us

we're all alone at last...

The stars have all come out to see

what love is all about

A hundred thousand points of light

approve without a doubt...

We'll sail to shores we've never seen

the compass in our heart

It's you and me forever babe

right here is where we start...

Good Bye

For days on end I’ve thought of you

while searching deep within

These feelings for you haven’t changed

but sorrow now begins...

What started out so innocent

now covered up with lies

We've both been risking everything

our friendship a disguise...

We said we’d never go this far

we broke all of the rules

So now we have to make a change

or else we all will lose...

I can't believe how much this hurts

to have to say good bye

My heart is aching deep within

please go, before I cry...

Baby Please

It seems so very clear to me

that you've been moving on

You’re distant even when you’re here

and not where you belong

I just can't reach you anymore

no matter how I try

And even when we’re all alone

a sadness in your eye

I’m begging Baby please go on

can’t take this anymore

I hope that somewhere you will find

what you've been looking for

Just close the door as you walk out

no need to say goodbye

I beg you please don’t turn around

can't let you' see me cry....

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Seeing You Again

I never thought we'd meet again

our ships passed in the night

The passion that once smiled on us

the timing wasn't right...

Seeing you again tonight

a quiet moonlit stroll

Your words spoke gently to my heart

and touched my lonely soul...

Sunday, August 23, 2015

Home

It's nestled in a mountain range

and far from city lights

A place of gentle solitude

my little paradise...

The giant pine trees touch the sky

and mountains topped with snow

The forest hides it's treasure trove

at night, the afterglow...

Oasis from another life

where time slows down it's pace

A haven from insanity

the madness of the race...

A simple place I now call home

surrounded by a stream

Moonbeams grace the sky at night

and laughter fills my dreams...

Music-Do You Remember by Phil Collins

The Struggle

Oh the thoughts that come again

some are villains some are friends

Who will win the war this time?

Oh the battle in my mind....

Strong convictions make a stand

Deep desires countermand

Only one will win today

One must go and one will stay...